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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 13:10:40 GMT

This blog was left alone for a reason. This blog used to say stories about my life. But I've since found no motivation nor reason for me to blog as I feel that sometimes it's all about the attention that u wanna receive from the posts that u made. Or maybe sometimes it's about letting yr emotions out, which is wat i'm doing now. But... For what?

Do u really want people to know how happy or sad u were? I don't see a point. I've learnt that in this life, u can't rely on others too much to achieve what u want in life. U have to thrive and achieve them with yr own effort and hard work.

I feel that i'm currently stuck in a blackhole whereby time just stood still and living my life aimlessly.

Soul searching...

Friday, August 18, 2006

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 11:05:13 GMT

In Loving Memory....

Its been a week since you've been gone....
I was there to see you take your last breath...
I was there to bathe you....
I was there to put you to rest....
I was there....

I wish I could have spent more time with you...
To talk to you...
To tell me all your stories and jokes....
To tell you how much you mean to me....

You were the one who bought me my toys...
You were the one who bring me for my haircut...
You were the one who taught me bout religion....

Even though you're gone....
A part of you still stay with me...
All the things that you've done for me...
The memories kept forever....

I Love You With All My Heart....
I miss you grandpa....

Friday, July 14, 2006

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 12:52:43 GMT

Launch of Royston's Shorts (17/06/06)

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Sun, 28 May 2006 02:56:37 GMT

Danny & fyan's 21st Bdae Bash......

It was great fun hanging out with SuperNova and frenz this weekend.... Glad to haf gd fren, shimada, julie, nadiah and wifey Silver to drop by.... And it was great singing my gd fren her song once again... My angel always....

The cutting cake was totally CRAZY.... Had lotsa lotsa fun... I guess the pics will tell ya wat i mean.....

Sad Sia....

Big Birthday Grins

Cake : Before

Sad...

Happy...

Extremely Happy!!!

Our SuperNova traditional gift... The Great Wedgey!!!

Our Asses were so damn sore....

Cake : After

A Big Thank You To The GUYS That Made It All Happen....

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Sat, 20 May 2006 19:11:14 GMT

You and me at IndoChine....

Juz got back from catching Over the Hedge at Plaza Singapura with Danny, Ash and his gf... Its such a hilarious show... Its a must watch.... hahaha.... And Tammy the squirrel is damn adorable and funny....

Danny and I were chilling at IndoChine to pass the time while waiting for Ashley.... And Danny talked to Jeff and asked if I could sing... And he gladly said yes....

It was great singing at IndoChine... With passer-bys stopping to catch the performance... And seeing people singing along to the song... hahaha... It was kinda like a wonderful bdae gift for me as I missed performing so much....

Well... I'm 21 now... Finally legal to catch R21 shows... hahha... But in the eyes of the b0bs and gang I still look like an underaged kid... hahaha... Especially after the Ice Cold Beer incident.... hehhehe....

Well... Esta mage Mongtes to me.... =)

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Sat, 20 May 2006 05:08:17 GMT

Pre 21st May.....

Ista mages ta mong ge ges ta bo bo ta esta mage mong tes..... Ma gas ta titi ro po gas ta esta sadeste.... esta uniones ta sentoses... esta feeles ta lonelesly....... Ba ges ta oldes.... Ja gas ta re popo ta walagestos.... esta sadestes.... esta lonelesly....

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Sun, 14 May 2006 12:56:16 GMT

Lavina the irritant....

Went to meet gd fren and ray for lunch at Plaza Singapura today.... Its great to see gd fren again... After lunch, gd fren had to go for her brazilian wax... So all of us went our separate ways... And I'm left all alone in town... As always.... hahaha...

Roamed around town for about an hour or so before Lavina came to meet me as she juz knocked off work and had to return her library books... Lavina is so irritating poking me with her Shaolin Finger of Fury..... hahaha.....

Well.... I haf to say sorry to new fren for not remembering her 20th birthday... I feel so bad juzt thinking about it... Haiz... I'm so so sorry mada....

Friday, May 12, 2006

Fri, 12 May 2006 05:18:16 GMT

It's great to be alive... again....

Well... Its been a damn long time since i've updated.... And i've been enjoying my life ever since i've been out of OCS... hahaha.... I'm now posted to Nee Soon Camp waiting for my combat medic course which starts on the 19th of June... And till den... I'm juz slacking around at the office..... And i finally haf an audition with Music & Drama Company (MDC).... Its on the 3rd of June... Hope i'm able to impress....

Channel 5 has been doing me a huge favour by conting down to my bdae.... hahaha.... Its such an irony that the premiere of Singapore Idol 2 falls on my bdae..... And the sad thing is dat i'm unable to throw a party for my 21st bdae due to financial constraint.... =(

Monday, March 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:34:30 GMT

My passion for singing overpowers my passion for Officership....

Well... Dat was wat Commander OCS told me as he read the verdict during the Performance Review Board.... And so... I'm now Out Of Course... But the fucked up thing is... I'm still at Charlie Wing... Helping out in the stores and etc..... And another fucked up thing is dat i heard my Wing Commander wants to keep me and the other 3 OOCs till Brunei as he wants us to help out....

I just pray hard dat my posting will come asap... So i wun be going to Brunei with them... As my mum's 43rd bdae and MY 21st BIRTHDAY!!! falls during the time we're gonna be away in Brunei..... ARGH!!!!

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 03:43:26 GMT

YES SIR!!! YES SIR!!!! FUCK YOU SIR!!!!!

Juz completed my 4 days 3 nights of platoon field camp.... I think it's gonna be my last field camp in OCS.... I was the Exercise Spade's Platoon Sergeant... And i totally screwed it up.... I showed no leadership skills what so ever.... My shellscrape was not up to standard and i was the slowest to complete my fire trench......

My section instructor talked to me and asked me what was wrong... The relationship between my section instructor and me is very bad... There's like this cold and hatred aura between us... He asked me... Why am I not very forthcoming when i really enjoy the stage so much... I told him that singing was my passion and so it really drives me to go the extra mile... And so he twisted my answer and said.... So you are saying that you have no intrest or desire whatsoever in OCS... I said... not really.....

He said... Since my motivation is low and the interest and desire isn't there... It isn't fair for him to keep me in OCS... And since i'm already on my CROW... Another Opservation Report will put me out of course...

I'm expecting the worst this coming week in camp... I know he's all out to put me out.... And if he does so... I'll stay a private not a corperal as i've not completed my service term....

To be fair... Serously... I hate the army... And of course... Being out field... And i'm perpectually dragging my ass in field camps.... I can lead and do well in admin areas... Such as IPPT, managing the platoon and etc... But during out field... I'm a disaster...

I'm bounded by mixed emotions... I'm a little happy on the prospect of being out of course and sad as my parents and family have been so proud of me being in OCS.... It doesn't matter now... All that matters is what my section instructor will do.... My OCS days are numbered... And it's up to me and him to put it to an end....

Live your life.....