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Monday, July 05, 2010

兩個人不等於我們

Today, I miss you
So much that I cried

I'm not asking for sympathy
Nor for love

My heart aches
So much that it crumbled today

I've put up a strong front
Filling my time with work
Hoping it'll take you away

But I've realised that you're not gone
As my heart is with you

I'm trying to move ahead
Each time I feel I'm stronger
Avid fan will pull me down

He's not to blame
I'm just stupid

I'm stupid to think that through her
I'm able to forget you
But everyone knows it ain't true

I'm not sure when I'll see you
I know it's just a phone call away
But things aren't that simple

I'm leaving it to fate and circumstances

I hope you're doing well
I really do

I miss you...

王力宏 - 两个人不等于我们

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fK8UWUFsbe8

　　醒来只有我一个人
　　分不清黄昏或清晨
　　空气微冷有甚么在流失慢慢降温
　　一颗心往下沉
　　毕竟只是太短的梦
　　彼此终于退回陌生
　　我加上你两个人并不等于我们
　　你想我吗会偶尔想我吗
　　是这样吗飞扬的会落下
　　你爱我吗如果诚实回答
　　可是爱也不是解答
　　空屋子里没有回声
　　但我记忆有你指纹
　　我加上你两个人却并不等于我们
　　你想我吗会偶尔想我吗
　　是这样吗飞扬的会落下
　　你爱我吗如果诚实回答
　　可是爱也让人疲乏
　　你爱我吗爱我就懂我吗
　　告诉我善意的谎话
　　好让我相信我不是太傻

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Sunday, May 16, 2010

Hope You Had Fun

I guess I should not be angry. But I really wanted to see you. I really wanted to see u in your beautiful gown. You said u'll be tired and going to spend time with Lydia and pack yr bags for LA after. But instead you partied with Mark. Jealous I suppose but more of why didn't u tell me. Did I cross ur mind? I know u spent the whole night with me ydae and I'm grateful for that. It's just that at times I feel used by you. I really do. Coz My emotions are so vulnerable by your every action. I just wanted to see you. I just wanted to see you. Coz I know it won't be long till goodbye...

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Saturday, April 17, 2010

I WAS DELUDED!!!!

Hey, thanks alot for the wake up call. I really really appreciate it. You know, aside from the ""life" things that you mentioned to me. You also made me realise something about us or me for that matter.

This past few days, I was hanging on to something that wasn't there. I was trying to make something happen when it wasn't meant to begin in the first place. And I should have sticked to my word and be ok about it when you said you just wanted to be friends.

There I was, trying to be loved by you, trying to hold yr hand, to kiss you and stuff. I shall stop doing that. As that's not friends do and it's not healthy for us or me for that matter to keep doing that. And I'm sorry. I guess I was the one confused. hehehe!!!

And yes, I am very very glad and honored to be your friend as I feel you're a great person. You really are. And you being my life coach, only if you want to coz I don't wanna force you (Heheh!!), it will be amazing!!! Your drive and determination is addictive and it's beginning to rub on to me.

I'm really syched up for this change. A change I've been procrastinating for too long!! Goddamit!! It's time for change and it's time for Sufyan to get serious with his life. No more 20 year old mentality. Time to do things for myself as no one will do it for me unless I do it for myself. I will love myself and family more.

I will be a different Sufyan once I'm done being 25. I will be a matured, spirited, goal-driven, good-looking, skinny and sexy and not forgetting good-looking middle aged man!!! ;)

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Monday, April 12, 2010

What Do You Want From Me?

You telling me one thing today and showing me another the next with all this mixed signals and emotions is driving me crazy. I'm not sure how to play this, as in how do I fit in this life of yours? I really wonder. One day you miss me and another you're so nonchalant.

You said you're trying to control it and so you try to not meet me and you won't get confused. I just want you to know that it's not only your emotions that's at stake here. It's mine too. And my feelings is not some game you play. Making me feel loved one day and bringing me back to ground the next. It's not only you who's trying here. I'm going through it too. I told myself when I was in Phuket that I will accept to be whoever you want me to be but apparently you're not sure how to place me as yet.

I was rather angry when I saw your blog post. I'm not sure if you were referring to me but if you were, was I suppose to call you? I don't get it. You know I hate to disappoint people and knowing that I've disappointed you and not knowing I was suppose to do what you wanted is just plain unfair.

Let's meet on the 1st. And this time no more failures. We are not going to fail this round. I want you to get your thoughts and emotions sorted out and tell me what am I suppose to do. I love you and you know that. And I am willing to accept whatever decision you're going to make. But don't make me an in-between.

With much love,
Sufyan Sam'an

What Do You Want From Me - Adam Lambert

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15c9h3e7hdQ

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I’m afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
And I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn’t give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it’s plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you’re beautiful
And it’s nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It’s me, I’m a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin’ me
Cause you’re doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn’t even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don’t give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won’t let you down
No, I won’t let you down

(So I) just don’t give up
I’m workin it out
Please don’t give in, I won’t let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don’t give up I’m workin’ it out
Please don’t give in, i won’t let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me

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Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Setting Goals

Being away alone on this trip was simply amazing. It was an enriching experience and I've told myself that I will do better in life when I'm back. Here are a few goals I've set:

- Club/ Drink only once a month or if can, not to.

- Sign up for Driving Lessons

- Sign up for Swimming Lessons

- Sign up for Mandarin Lessons

- To save at least $5,000 by end of year and this does not include savings for overseas trips or etc. It's untouchable savings.

- To watch at least 2 films per month.

- Read up more on film-making.

- BE MORE PRODUCTIVE AT WORK

- To spend more time with my family.

- Be more committed to my Marathon Training.

- Sign up for AHM and Stand Chart Half Marathons when they are out.

I will try my utmost best to keep to this goals by end of year. Will live life harder. And please please please REMIND ME if I start to stray away from these goals I've set. =)

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Sufyan Sam'an

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